I rang in the new year with a group of friends and my man at a block party in Scottsdale, Arizona. Champagne flutes being filled, bands playing, and party-goers filled the lit up streets of Old Town. It was by far my best NYE to date. How did you bring in the new year??
On the way home from our vacation, I looked back on my year--finding that it truly was a year of soul searching and seeking happiness. One year ago I was a student at a large university living with my two best friends and 7 months into a roller coaster relationship. School was the least of my worries and I was strictly set on the future, always waiting for the next best thing. As time went on, I found myself loosing all ambition to persevere in school and even worse, I became a foolish girl who put tremendous amounts of effort into a relationship that should have been so easy. I ran to friends and family both, seeking for advice in all aspects of my life. But even when the best advice was given, the final decision rested on me. Come March, I decided I was ready to try a new education path, in hopes it would open my door to a plethora of opportunities. So I applied to a new school, in a new city and shortly found myself accepted and anticipating its start. In the mean time, I was still struggling with my relationship that filled my mind with insecurities and doubt. I found myself blaming my own conscience and big heart for all of the struggles we were having, thus putting more weight on my non-loadbearing shoulders. We had good days and we had bad days, but what tugged at me most was that the simplest things were the biggest of struggles. Until one morning, I woke and told myself I needed and deserved more-- because sometimes you need to be selfish and do whats best for you. So in that moment, I let go of the anchor and began to lose sight of the shore- a distraught shore with bad memories I didn't care to come back to. Don't get me wrong, not every day was an easy one, but day by day I became stronger, and soon enough I began to shed the insecurities I had had for the past year and found myself once again. In those days of regaining my strength, maybe it was by chance, or maybe it was by fate, I came back into contact with a sweet and charming man I once knew a few years back. The opportunity for us came knocking and so we both answered, igniting the most playful and compatible relationship I have ever been involved in. The two of us have now shared 6 months of laughter and happiness together. I have very high hopes for our future, but am very content with living in the moment alongside him. In regards to my student life, I have now completed two terms at the health sciences college I am enrolled in and throughly enjoy it, as well as living in a new city. Looking back to that dark place one year ago, I see a sad and confused girl, which is as far away as I could possibly get from where I am now. This past year was all about making positive changes, finding self worth, and following my heart. In 2014, I plan to embrace the moments presented to me alongside of continuing to persevere towards a career and maintaining a healthy relationship!
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| Burke & me enjoying an evening out on the town |
As always, thank you for reading! This blog has become a great outlet for me to share not just beauty related posts, but personal posts as well. I hope you find yourself pushing forward to be the best version of YOU this year!
XO, Carrie
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